I love playing this game. Seeing my stats slowly go up day by day feels rewarding. one time I make a bad build choice, get disappointed, and end up dropping the game for a week. Then someone asks me to come back and help fight for independence, and I return to see all of my peers fighting together.
I'm not really up to date with government issues. Most of the time, I just follow the attack orders I'm given. For the past three months, it's been fun.
But then something happened. My government started having internal problems. One by one, I saw active Indonesian players on Discord leave Indonesia, quit the game, or become mercenaries somewhere else.
It feels like Indonesia has become a bad place to be, and I don't know what I should do. I want to keep playing and watching my stats grow, but if I stay in Indonesia, I feel like I might become an antagonist to people who are angry with the Indonesian government.
But if I leave Indonesia (Outdonesia, get it? Hehehe), I'm afraid I won't be welcomed back. I worry that people might see me as a traitor or say that I'm not patriotic because I chose to leave.
Honestly, I don't want to be on anyone's side. I just want to play the game, relax, and enjoy my time here without getting involved in conflicts.
What I really want is to play this game casually and peacefully, without conflict and without hurting anyone. I've always had trouble with how I communicate, which is why I mostly stay quiet and just read what others write.
Now I'm afraid of what's happening. I don't want to end up on the wrong side. I just want to enjoy the game and play it in a chill way.
I'm writing this down as a journal for myself, so I can look back on it later and remember what was going through my mind during this time. Please don't judge or hate me for any of this. I'm sorry if I've said something wrong.