I want to keep this simple. https://app.warera.io/user/69c4dc19cde5836cb7979931 gifted me a monthly premium subscription today, out of nowhere, and I am genuinely touched by that. So first and foremost - thank you. Seriously. That was kind and you did not have to do it.
Now, the explanation. Some of you may have noticed I have been playing a bit aggressively lately. And if I am being fully honest with myself - which, apparently, I am doing publicly today - part of that energy was not purely political. Part of it was personal.
I was jealous. Of the colours. Of the emojis. Of every premium player casually expressing themselves in chat while I sat there in plain white text like a nobody.
Every colourful username felt like a small reminder of what I did not have. I watched people drop emojis mid-conversation and something in me just - snapped a little. Was that a healthy response? No. Did it fuel some of my recent behaviour in this game? Possibly more than I would like to admit.
Chat colour envy is real. I am living proof.
https://app.warera.io/user/69c4dc19cde5836cb7979931, with one generous act, has done more for my mental health than I could have managed on my own. I now have premium. I have colours. I have emojis. I intend to use them responsibly and with great dignity.
To everyone I came at sideways these past few days - my bad. And to https://app.warera.io/user/69c4dc19cde5836cb7979931 - you are genuinely one of the good ones. 🇧🇪