Something is wrong with me or everything?

Today, I was in good profit, so I thought, "Let's open 1 elite chest." Boom, green. No issue. I could easily afford the loss. Then I thought, "Let's open 2 more." Boom, loss again. No issue. Then it became 3 elite chests. Again, loss.

Now I was so sure I would definitely get something good statistically. I started selling off assets. Loss, loss, then 1 purple. I was happy. Yeah, a little comeback. Then I opened 3 elite chests. I got common in all 3.

And you know what? All of them had purple in the next slot. Imagine.

I was so pissed off. I got angry and started working out more aggressively in gym.

Why do I do these things? WHYYYY, GOD? I always do this. I turn a good profit day into a loss in no time. This is getting ridiculous. Destroyed all my crazy oil profits in gambling.

The only place where I can see red is my P&L sheet.

Imagine losing this much wealth at a low level. I am still at 5k wealth at level 23, even after receiving a huge donation from my article. If I had never started opening cases, I would have been financially better off and probably a much saner person.

Look at my lifetime P&L curve. It started with amazing profit. I was around 800 coins in profit at level 14, I guess. That period was so good. I was in profit every day from case opening.

Now look where I stand.

Stand? No. Grounded? No. I am in deep hell.

I am at the level where oil is found.

I have unlocked 6th factory in skill since so many days but can't afford it due to gambling. Imagine level 23 player with 5 factories.

Every day, I tell myself, "This will be my last elite chest." But it never happens. I keep opening elite chests. Even normal cases are loss-making for me.

Every day, I start my day thinking, "Yeah, no gambling today."

But by the end of the day, I ruin everything by opening cases. I destroy all my profits and end up in a loss.

I cry and sleep every night.

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